HELLO WORLD

GOODBYE EVIL GRUDGE KEEPING EMO SELF.
I WON'T MISS YOU.
HELLO LOVELY CAFFEINATED MEEKAKITTY INSPIRED SELF.
I HOPE YOURE HERE TO STAY :D
I SHALL FROM HERE ON VIEW YOUR PRETTY WORLD WITH LUCID EYES
AN OPEN HEART AND BADLY TONED ARMS.

this is she:

I LOVE WHITE COFFEE AND IT LOVES ME BACK HARD ROFLMAO
TEEHEE

im not gonna be someone who exists to protect myself.
im gonna live.
and be hurt.
and be sad.
and be depressed.
but that way,
i'll know i have lived.
doing the things that i thought were for the best.
even if they weren't right.
it may be comforting to try very little and say that was my best.
but im not gonna be that person anymore.
i'm gonna have courage
and do things that
i know
will hurt me.
because i'd rather live knowing i tried and failed
and have not tried at all.
living till youre 100 and having done nothing
is simply existing
drifting from day to day
but dieing when youre 40
and having done so many things
not thinking that i had all the time in the world
thats living.
really living.
isn't it?
life is so short isnt it.
i want to be hurt.
i'm ready
bring it on.

knowing its all inevitably over without getting a second chance does not make it any less painful.
you don't get me, and i dont think i'll get a chance to show you. soon enough, you'll look into the crowd and smile when your eyes go past me and meet hers. you wont ever see the tears i cry.

to be lost, to be hurt, to be left out in the dark

i think i'm gonna stop blogging now, i just epic ceebs. its too much effort to type what ever the fuck im feeling out when i can just be more social and use msn, not that i'd have anyone to talk to anyway cus fuck. feel lonely. meh fuck that. its awesome over here, the beer is hella exp and strangely more readily availible for my consumption than in melb LOL?WTF?HAHA!! cousins been lovely honey takin me out n shiz and gettin her bf to drive us around LOL gunna go see new moon tmr with other cousin lols meh its like 3$ for me to see it so yeah why not roflmao her bf is nice, it seems everyone has bf's or is studying here and soon will go to america/perth/uk to study soon, msia wont be the same without them SO SAD LOR makes me wanna cry >_< we're all growin up so fast while i sit here and write. ditched the brother and cousins tonight, theyre out eating at the mamak stall in centerpoint lol. i ceebs passive smoking and putting up with annoying attention seeking behaviour, ITS GAY. no wonder so many people love you. ahem anyway YOU. i dont like you. i dont hate you. i *whatever goes here* you. you piss me off. you make me smile. i hate you for it. meh. i know what the answers gonna be. i dont care. i stopped caring. its such a waste of my precious time. spending seconds thinking about you. stupid stupid stupid. what the fuck are you scared for, most of the cards are in your hands loser. i hate you. cant be fucked dealing with you, thinking about you, worrying because of you, i hate you. when you get back i wanna tell you everything and hope that maybe i can get even just some small amount of emotion from you. show me that you care? just once? i wanna go. i want out. even though i'm scared of the end, i want to be able to face it strongly. so now im reckless. thankyou very much. its rather nice, not caring about anything or anyone. its incredibly selfish and shit but whatever. i say this with a smile on my face cus thats all you'll ever get from me. just a placid smile that tells you what im feeling just as much as you let me know of your emotions: nothing. whatever. i dont care. not about you.

in my wonderland
nandayo omee. wakaritainara hayakuze!! ore ha itsumo to onaji, omae no tame ni matteitandasouda kedo, konkai ha chigatte. omae ha sono toki yori sonnani kokoro ni chikakunakute, dan dan hanareteiru yo. 3shuu mae ni, futsuu to kawatte, omae ha akirametemo, boku no kokoro no tame ni boku ha amkiramenakute kimeta. daga, ore ni zenzen kibun ya aijyou nado ga nakute, kimi no seikatsu kara sugu ni kieruyou. sou kimeta.
We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Oh, who would've thought it would end up like this

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decided it?s time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let?s try and take it back before it all went wrong

I WANT SOMETHING UNIGNORABLE

ITS THE END AND ITS ALL OVER man im so happy no more exams, but it also might mean the end of something else, which i must say im an very afraid of. you don't seem to see how much i care. but mehh, like we agreed, im the fighter, so ill fight till its truely over so i can live with no regrets. if i can do that, that the end wont hurt as much if i know i gave it my all. well anyway. NO MORE EXAMS ROFLMAO DO YOU KNOW HOW EXHILARATING THIS IS? i feel exhuberant. and flambuoyant. and emancipated. and thrilled. and wonderous. and just down right freeeeeeeeeee. i wanna go outside and be picked up by the wind and just fly away :] ahahhaha childish I WANNA SING. LIKE OUT LOUD LOL. so loud that the next street can hear me :D don't have the courage to sing infront of you yet, but ill gett here with a little help called alcohollllllll.....either that or weed LOL IM GONNA FUCKING JUMP OFF THE EIFFLE TOWER. and go to france LOL. ill move to paris, shoot some heroin and fuck with the stars LOLOLOL





One love, one blood, one people
One heart, one beat, we equal
Connected like the internet
United that's how we do
Lets break walls, so we see through
Let love and peace lead you
We could overcome the complication cause we need to
Help each other, make these changes
Brother, sister, rearrange this
The way I'm thinking that we can change this bad condition
Wait, use you mind and not your greed
Let's connect and then proceed
This is something I believe
We are one, we're all just people

i think that lately, were all forgetting that were just here, only for a while, so we ought to enjoy ourselves more. so from now own, im gonna use my life, to make your life just that tiniest bit more worth living. its gonna be my mission :] to make your day like sunshine ahahhaah :]wish me luck :D i'll do my best :]